TTTC Reading #3

In this section of reading there are a few things theat struck me, the first was the name of the chapter, titled "The Man I Killed" which instantly made my head spin. O'Brien talks about My Khe, the man he killed, and immediately starts to ask himself questions and wonder what his life would've been like if he would've lived. He questions everything about My Khe and describes the look of death all over his body and throws in things to take your mind off of the goriness of it. This all proves to me that all of our soldiers feel guilt after they kill somebody in battle especially if it is their first kill and the thought of it never goes away and it is an event they will remember forever.O'Brien writes about how he still tries to put it in the past, but is unable to and continues to question his reasoning and actions that he took and did in the war. He says he will never forgive himself for what he did. War transforms the human body and takes away from them everything they had before they entered the war. You must accept the fact that you're already dead when going to battle.

Nobody understands what war is like until they have truly been in a war and been through the suffering and all of the sights and feelings that come along with it.People such as Norman Bowker commited suicide after the war because of the fact that he could not handle all of the memories and thoughts that the war left with him and before he dies he wrote notes about what he endured and lived through when he got back home. Whenever a soldier died in combat next to his "brothers" the war was not always the blame because they all truly felt guilty about the death of their companion even if it wasn't their fault.